January 1, 2012

Sweet Jesus, Thank you for 2011.


A letter to Jesus

As I look back at the pictures that form in my head --all of things that came by this year, that I was a part of, that changed me, that changed others, that made me what I'm today, I feel myself breathing tranquilly by being reassured that you really know what to bring along.

Not everything was peaches and cream this last year, some things were plain ol’ mud and poop. There were times when I questioned your art and skill at writing my life’s story, “You’re ruining everything!” I cried. “Please be careful.” Ah but you knew all along. Thank you for not taking me out of the situation but instead helping me through it. I gained, discovered and learned so many things down that path. And what stands out the most is your love, your tender, deep, abiding, unconditional, caring, saving love. Nothing can save me like you do, nobody can make me feel as loved, secure, accompanied, understood, happy and well as you do. So well! It’s more than the feelings you give me. It’s the faith, the grace, the fulfillment, the power and love that makes it not just worth it all, but make me willing and desirous to do anything to have and keep it!

When I wake up in the morning, it’s for You that I want to be a better person. You give me so many gifts that I want to show you my thankfulness by living a life that makes You proud.

Thank you for everything this year, Jesus. Because the good and the bad, the lovely and the ugly, the joyous and the disheartening all translated into making me feel your love more than ever before.

Thank you for being at the helm of my ship, at the steering wheel in my car. Thank you for being the writer of my story. Thank you for knowing best and for not getting angry at me when I doubt that you do. But instead You call me, take me in your arms, and give me exactly what I need and in the way I need it to help my faith hang in there and believe that you have My best interests at heart. Thank you so much for that.

It’s a fact I couldn’t breathe without You, love without You or be happy without You. So thank you for every breath…an average of 10,541,200 this year? Probably much more, I mean, I did experience lots of exciting things this year, but we'd also have to subtract the moments that took my breath away!

All in all thank you for a well-rounded full year! I have so many things to thank you for!

Thank you for speaking to me.

Thank you for proving to me this year that there is no prayer too small or too big for you, by answering both! (Like when the bus passes by just on time, or when I asked you to bring my parents back together and give them a better marriage than they’ve ever have. It definitely felt like I was asking you to take me to live to Mars)

Thank you for helping me with university, for helping me to learn, to have good grades and to enjoy myself along the way! All of it is thanks to you! Thank you for my scholarship and for my loving parents who support and pay for my studies.

Thank you so much for the opportunity to be part of an awesome team to change lives in particular places and times, while also carrying that spark back to my place and city.

Thank you for the privilege of loving and being loved by the guy who takes my breath away, who’s my partner in crime (bombarding the gates of Hell) and who makes me laugh more than any comedian (he’s not a comedian by the way).

Thank you so much for the time I spent with him this year. I treasure every little second of it! Thank you for making me the lucky girl who gets to love him with all her heart! And who gets to receive his love too! Thank You, Jesus, for being the love we have.

Thank you for bringing new people along my path, that became new friends.

Thank you for bringing me closer to old dear friends.

Thank you for giving me an amazing summer with my girlies.

Thank you for the privilege of seeing my best friend so happy, thank you for being her happiness and thank you for Keith!

Thank you for answering my prayer of giving Esther the right man (I started praying two years ago). She’s in South Africa with him right now.

Thank you for the strength, encouragement, love and help that you gave me through my dear friends!

Thank you for Windy and the inspiration she is to me!

Thank you for each of my friends and how they make me feel loved and appreciated for who I am.

Thank you for teaching me to appreciate life much more, that of others and mine as well. My baby could’ve died falling three stories down; but you protected him mightily and I believe you healed the unthinkable while he lay on the ground.

Thank you for your protection! Thank you for the amazing miracles of healing, supply and strength that you did for Kevin when the accident happened and during the months he spent recovering.

Thank you for mom, dad, Nina and Adrian, their presence, love, funny ways, different personalities and ways of interacting that make life with them interesting, enjoyable and a real learning and tuning experience.

Thank you for Sandy and for experiencing much of life with her!

Thank you for my friends in school.

Thank you for the opportunity to pray with and for people, trust you for the miracles and sometimes get to see them right away!

Thank you for the gift of giving to and hugging the needy.

Thank you for a grand year!

Can you believe it, Jesus? I actually wanna go back as if it were the end of a good movie or gripping book to experience little snippets of it again. Even some of the bad parts because I know that in the end it all turned out great (since the main character is better off and has learned much more and so have the people around her). It's those kinds of parts that bring the climax and make the story deep and meanigful in the end. Thank you, Jesus.

I'm honestly crazy excited that the sequels continues TODAY, 1st of January, 2012.

1 comments:

Windy said...

I love everything about this post! You have such a talent for writing honey!
But I think what I loved the most is how I can relate to it so very much. It's almost like you're talking about me! It makes me realize how very blessed we are and what a wonderful savior we have! Thank you for sharing this Stephy and thank you for the reminder of how Jesus truly is in control of everything. He is the great director.

 
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